Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Lady Godiva

I am sitting in Starbucks Sunway Pyramid waiting for Lisa to be done with her servicing. And in case you are wondering who Lisa is, Lisa is my car. But she's not just a car, she is also my best friend for the last 5 years. Lisa is always there for me. And Lisa is the one who sees me through my ups and downs. Lisa saw me laugh, saw me going crazy, saw me going tipsy and Lisa saw me cry. I love Lisa.

Now besides waiting for Lisa, I am trying my best to kick myself in the butt to get started with my little assignment on Godiva. However, that is not going to happen in this few couple of hours.I am moving at snail's speed on all my assignments which is awfully unacceptable. I am also waiting for my Little Miss Grumpy to come by. Wonder where she is right now...

Lately, I have been told that I am not good enough for anyone. I am not smart enough, not pretty enough, not kind enough, not caring enough and not sensitive enough. I am not too sure that I am really all that, but probably, I am all that. Especially the insensitive part.

It is very perturbing because all I want to do is to make people happy. Well at least, to make one person happy. But I seemed to have fail at it miserably.

Apart from that, I am also perplexed by my own complexity of always wanting things that is out of my reach. I want things that I know I could not and could never get. And that, in one way or another, turned me into a woman of greed. To some. Sigh... I am nowhere close to Lady Godiva.

Oh! Little Miss Grumpy is here. Got to sign off now else she'll become Little Miss Grumpier...

2 comments:

anakemas said...

>> Lately, I have been told that I am not good enough for anyone. I am not smart enough, not pretty enough, not kind enough, not caring enough and not sensitive enough. I am not too sure that I am really all that, but probably, I am all that.

Everyone's allowed their time in self-loathing. But whoever the idiot was who said those things to you sounds very bitter. The reality is you're too good for whoever it is who doesn't know how to appreciate you.

A.

Ty said...

Gee! Thanks, Ziz..
But I'm pretty ok with these shitheads..They'll make me pause a second or two, thinking. After that, I'll just toss my head and laugh..!