Overindulgence

It is never virtuous to have too much of anything.

Too much coffee. Too much love. Too much rest. Too much food. Too much work. Too much care. Too much fat. Too much stupidity. Too much indolence. Too much and too much.

I woke up this morning with the song 'Too Much Love Will Kill You' in my head. Ironic. Hehehe..

I have been eating outside far too often these days. Pretty soon I am going to be a few stones heavier. I think it is about time for me to start cooking at home. But that's fine. It means burning less hole in my already holey pocket.

It is also unhealthy if you have nothing of everything.Time-less, boyfriend-less, love-less (well, in my case it is artificial love which is equivalent to no love at all), care-less, job-less, hair-less, hope-less.

I just failed my recent PAC assessment to join the government. Guess I am not government material. Guess I am a square peg which won't fit in the round hole of government. Nevertheless, I wonder what it takes to be one.

Alright. Okay. Tam the cat is hurtling around with a baby lizard she just spotted in the kitchen. Those two are making me nervous. And I have just spotted one huge acne on my cheek. Drat. What's happening to my complexion these days?

The Marionette Dance

I am a marionette.

Pull my strings and I will walk.

Tilt me here and there and I shall move.

Jolt me and I will dance.

I am a marionette.

I put smiles on people's face.

I obey my master with my tameness and grace.

I am a marionette.

What I feel is not important.

How I feel is irrelevant.

A Not So New 'New Year'

My first entry since new year. Already we are 14 days into 2009.

I am having itches on my neck and chest. Possibly out of excessive exposure to the sun over the last weekend. Sarah, Adah and I were trying to stage a beachside holiday in Prima Court. We slapped on some tanning oil onto our bods and threw ourselves underneath the sun by the pool deck.

I didn't figure out any new year resolution this year. In fact I couldn't even remember the last time I had one. This year was no difference. But I did worked out few things I don't want to be stuck with for the rest of my life and even fewer things I would like to do before I expire. Here they are...

I don't want to be stuck for my entire life with..

1. crappy relationship that costs me my freedom of thoughts and my identity.

2. being treated like a slave just because I decided to indulge in love.

3. the ideology that getting married is the main objective of life.

4. someone who does not love me for who I am.

5. pretending to be someone I am not.

I would make sure I will..

1. be a better person for myself.

2. put myself before anyone else and love myself more (this was something I didn't do quite well before).

Nevertheless, getting some tan is always worthy. Even if it means wearing prickly red chest and neck for a week.